Childhood trauma: Surrounded by the tranquil countryside, my childhood home with its vast garden and the rhythm of four distinct seasons seemed the epitome of an ideal environment for healthy growth. However, being born via C-section, separated from my mother for two weeks, and later experiencing emotional neglect, my idyllic surroundings became fertile ground for childhood trauma. During puberty, I transformed from a 'good girl' into a rebellious and lost teenager. I felt lonely and confused. Throughout my life, I yearned for love, having never experienced the freedom of making my own choices.

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Adulthood drama: At age 25, freshly graduated from university, I escaped my country, leaving behind my parents, my beloved dog, and a romantic relationship of nine years. Despite this, stability has eluded me, especially in relationships, most of which ended painfully, leaving me with few true friends.

After two decades of being in and out of traditional therapy, it was only four years ago that I discovered there's more to healing than just dwelling on past experiences. A pivotal moment occurred while listening to Gabor Maté, a beloved teacher, who remarked to one of his students, "you lost your identity, you don’t really know who you are anymore." This discovery sparked the beginning of my healing journey. 

 

Awakening: The realisation of the depth of my pain only dawned on me during a plant medicine retreat. It was a precise moment when I finally encountered my True Self, stripped of all protective shields and masks. This is when I learned how shame truly feels in my body. It was then that I unearthed the essence of my being, the embodiment of all the suffering I had endured throughout the years. In that moment, I beheld a girl who never felt good enough, who perpetually carried the weight of a burden.

Later on, I came to understand that these adaptations were crafted to safeguard her precious life, to preserve her essence. This profound experience served as a catalyst for further, deeper exploration into my inner world.

Prior to this retreat, I delved into various healing modalities such as Reiki, sound healing, and ancient wisdom teachings. These practices laid the foundation for inner work, guiding me on an incredible journey of self-discovery, culminating in unapologetic joy and a deep sense of wholeness.

During this time, I also discovered my ADHD symptoms and was later diagnosed with the inattentive type of Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder.

 

Present moment: I'm here to serve you, knowing that transformation is possible. I understand the importance of having support—someone who can hold space for you when you start touching painful parts within yourself, even when the instinct is to run from the pain. Give yourself the gift of getting to know yourself so you can live the life you deserve.

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Please note that this is my personal journey and should not be taken as advice, DIY formula or substitute for your own therapy. Plant medicine retreats and other healing modalities may not be suitable for everyone, and it is important to seek professional guidance before embarking on such paths. If you would to check my offerings around healing modalities, visit Gosia Healing Space. 

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THANK YOU FOR READING MY STORY, MUCH LOVE, GOSIA.