Nepal - dead of the ego

Everything is impermanent.

Everything is perfect.

Life is meditation.

Suffering is an illusion.

Simple truths that, when truly embodied, bring calm, pace, and the realisation that there is no threat. Emotions come and go. They are impermanent. The ego mind is the source of suffering. Pain is inevitable. This is the human experience on Earth. But how we label pain is how we perceive the world around us.

19th of December 2024. Around 2am local time.

I’m in a hotel bed, sweating, shivering, barely breathing. My whole body aches. It’s my fifth night with no sleep and my period has just arrived, delayed. In two days I’m meant to be trekking to Annapurna Base Camp.

At the same time I’m having conversations with some of my core friends, finding refuge in the love they’re offering me.

The day before I completely collapsed I visited one of the oldest Hindu spiritual and architectural sites on Earth. Pashupatinah Temple in Kathmandu. I took part in death rituals. A deeply immersive experience. I know this was an initiation of my entire journey in Nepal.

The Annapurna Base Camp trek became a test of faith, resilience, and patience. Faith in myself, my inner journey, my struggles, and how I relate to them. Nothing puts life into perspective like sleepless nights in freezing cold, basic conditions, on Christmas Eve.

The final release and relief came in Namo Buddha Monastery. Sitting in the temple at 6am, meditating to puja sung by monastery students and monks. 

Heaven is on Earth. 

You just need to turn your gaze inward to see it.

To all relations

Namaste and thank you. 

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